covered

covered in thoughts
comfortable in my sheets
my mind wanders. lingers
vibrates in the madness of you.
and when i hear the sweet sound of footsteps
i imagine they are yours coming straight to my door
i imagine your silhouette at my bed

imagination has a terrifying way of taking over me.
enough to dig deep
bring on the wetness
sink into the best dirty.

enraptured, i let myself get captured in every sense
the best thought
the best feel
the best urge that owns itself
takes over me
touches me
fulfills me.

and in the sweetness of imagination,
i find myself falling into the

sweet

slumber

of

you

black goes to blue

all i see is a deep dark sky hidden with the silhouettes of blue.
and the sweetest of lights highlight you.
you’re a memory i wish would stay.
and i know you enough to understand whats happening.

but i fight back the feeling.
i hold back the urge
until i see you again…
serendipitously.
and then, you might be mine.
for just one night.
i can tell you everything i want.
all my secrets.

before all goes gray. before the black sky turns to blue.

then maybe all this will go away.
then maybe everything that is us will matter

5207

the afternoon came along with the ache of your absence. i miss you now. more in this moment than i have in the months passed. this afternoon found me tired. and i just wanted to call you. i wanted to hear you call me your baby. but i can’t, just like i can’t seem to find the words inside me anymore. as if you left me and took my pen and paper with you.
the afternoon held me close to the ground. it’s heavier than i remember, this misfortune. i try to center myself in the disadvantage, keep my eye on the prize, and as i lean into it, i find you. i find your signal.