i might need you
right now.
what a weird feel…
that leaves us all solo
to be so encompassed
to be so silent.
what a weird feel…
to feel the way i do.
sleepless
in sleepless nights
hungry bodies grow tiresome
as you grow tiresome too.
an exchange of love between the two of you.
your eyes meet often
blink quickly with one another.
the shots of life that pierce between each breath
you give reason to each moment that we hold ourselves in.
i lust
what i couldn’t say to want you less.
it’s a surplus to give you more…
you give and i take.
all that is lust
comes in all that we want.
what i wouldn’t give…
to give you more.
proud scamp. dirtier than content.
what i wouldn’t give to give you less
as you take and i give.
all that is want
comes in all that we need.
comes in all that we take.
what i wouldn’t give…
to give you more.
a taste
i give it to you
but only a little dosage of everything i am.
i give it to you to test you out,
to see if any shame will remain.
i know everything and nothing about you,
and i don’t care that i care.
because its a scratch.
its a distraction from all the rest.
a day in may
sitting quiet in a little room.
droopy eyes try to stare through me.
right through my soul.
tell me all i want to know.
tell me all about me.
she creeps through a past.
tells me the things that i may mask.
clears the air with everyone here.
everyone i know, she tells it slow.
but me? what about me??
three children. long life. do you have a daughter? no? well you will…
a man i love.
and health? i’m fine.
i’m fine.
i’m fine…
as you wish to hear the things you want. you hear the things that don’t work. and you want to believe it all.
oh to hear the clearest of lies.
black cover
You’re like a salty wave that washes over me.
A naughty moment I can’t get out of my thoughts.
And when I know better, I still push past my limit.
I should stop, I need to stop.
But I won’t.
A little heat that soaks through my center.
I just want.
and I beg.
a black cover
that I hope you take advantage of.
against the walls
what happened.
as you question emotions, as you question actions, as you question love,
you question people.
and the darkest are brought to light
as they fight to stay in the shades
of blues and grays and the blackest of blacks.
you wonder where the important went.
pressed up against this wall.
there’s no telling where you might end up.
life has a funny way of dealing you cards. giving you strength in the strangest or most difficult ways.
save as…
its compulsive.
an open envelope. blank for anyone.
i realize what i am asking for. and you aren’t the first one
welcome to burst a bubble, maybe i just need…
funny feeling to leave me alone with my thoughts.
quiet in the movement. gently in the notion.
bring it on to me.
how i feel
how do i feel… how do i feel. i’m not sure anymore.
i feel isolated. desolate.
i feel negative and demanding.
i feel worn out and helpless.
i feel fearful and unknowing.
i feel hopeful…
hopefully.
a quiet way
eyes close in the memory of you
fingers clench, my thoughts drift past imagination.
a touch i wait for, a kiss to explore the body of you, the body of me.
what a confusing way to end my day.
wanting. yearning.
if only i could just tell you to give it to me.
give me all you’ve got.
i’ll hold it safe in my safest place.
quiet. and wet.
Ciara Ashley Johnson 