what happened. as you question emotions, as you question actions, as you question love, you question people. and the darkest are brought to light as they fight to stay in the shades of blues and grays and the blackest of blacks. you wonder where the important went. pressed up against this wall. there’s noContinue reading “against the walls”
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save as…
its compulsive. an open envelope. blank for anyone. i realize what i am asking for. and you aren’t the first one welcome to burst a bubble, maybe i just need… funny feeling to leave me alone with my thoughts. quiet in the movement. gently in the notion. bring it on to me.
how i feel
how do i feel… how do i feel. i’m not sure anymore. i feel isolated. desolate. i feel negative and demanding. i feel worn out and helpless. i feel fearful and unknowing. i feel hopeful… hopefully.
a quiet way
eyes close in the memory of you fingers clench, my thoughts drift past imagination. a touch i wait for, a kiss to explore the body of you, the body of me. what a confusing way to end my day. wanting. yearning. if only i could just tell you to give it to me. give meContinue reading “a quiet way”
a dark gloom against your back
… makes you notice things you never did before. the way the wind blows through everything. the consistent hum of the road. grumbling sounds of motorcyclist’s zooming by. airplanes thunder in the sky. the way the clouds light up in the evening light. the hum of the wind and twinkling sound of the sun-kissed leaves.Continue reading “a dark gloom against your back”
sidetrack
feeling the movements of my old days. swaying away from the solidity of now. wanting an escape, craving an outlet because the realities of now go far beyond me. beyond capacity. so give me a story. let me ride a love song. send me to fantasy and back. sidetrack my worried mind. as iContinue reading “sidetrack”
monday june eighteenth
its like the pit of my stomach wasn’t low enough. it decided it needed to sink lower than my feet and it decided to pull my heart with it pull my head with it. dragging while i clench. holding on. ohh these movements are starting to feel mechanic. ohh these mechanics are making me wantContinue reading “monday june eighteenth”
10.31
and if i just went away, would you try to find me? i believe you wouldn’t. i dont think you love me that much. if i were to pack my things and run. where ever… i could do it, you know. i would try to be the brave heart i want to be. i couldContinue reading “10.31”
melody
Melody, I Play a fool to your passion filled lust. There’s no reasoning, I just give. Like a love sick manic, i am fulfilled. Waiting patiently, I’m hoping that you’ll build me up. Reason has a funny way of playing my heart. Just waiting for the beat to grow tiresome. I’ll always give you seconds.
hold it
star bright moon light give me strength a petal graces me with all its power leaves me delicate. alone and willing. someone give me the knowledge to hold it all right now. with nothing else but a beat, hold me in all your control hold me still…
Ciara Ashley Johnson 